lxforever

everything you never wanted to know. about me. 

November 2nd, 2010

NaNoBloPo 2010 – maybe?

• Day 01 – Introduce yourself
• Day 02 – Your first love
• Day 03 – Your parents
• Day 04 – Your music
• Day 05 – Your definition of love
• Day 06 – Your hobbies
• Day 07 – Your best friend
• Day 08 – A precious item
• Day 09 – Your beliefs
• Day 10 – An inspiration
• Day 11 – Your siblings
• Day 12 – What’s in your bag
• Day 13 – Your mode of transportation
• Day 14 – Where you live
• Day 15 – Something you love about yourself
• Day 16 – Your first kiss
• Day 17 – Your favourite memory
• Day 18 – Your favourite birthday
• Day 19 – Something you regret
• Day 20 – Your morning routine
• Day 21 – Your job and/or schooling
• Day 22 – Something that upsets you
• Day 23 – Something that makes you feel better
• Day 24 – Something that makes you cry
• Day 25 – Your sleeping habits
• Day 26 – Your fears
• Day 27 – Your favourite place
• Day 28 – Something that you miss
• Day 29 – Your favourite foods/drinks
• Day 30 – Your aspirations

October 30th, 2010

hurricane

“i’m a lightheaded wonder,” she said,
“don’t you see my mind slow down?
i’m a lightheaded wonder
don’t you see my mind slow down?
slow down

i’ve compassion for strangers,
an affinity for danger –
won’t you be my sacrifice?

i’m a lightheaded wonder
don’t you see my mind slow down for you?
for you?”

—Lisa Loeb

I know I’ve been terrible about updating and now I’m just going into that ‘post a bunch of random lyrics’ mode. Well, whatever. But now it’s almost November (2nd anniversary woo!) and I thought I should write something a bit more. October has been good to me and many around me in many ways….Alyssa had her baby, my mom had her surgery, Jenny saw Shakira ;), and I’ve had some swell weekends overall. AND I went to Boston and saw Katy and Rob which was awesome. And NOW it’s Halloween. Good stuff. But I definitely still vacillate between this new 2010 happiness and some accompanying frustration, moroseness. I don’t know how to resolve the latter, since it’s really out of my control, but at least I can be grateful for the former somewhat.

Our giant pine tree fell down in the MNicane of 2010 which was sad, but we were extremely extremely lucky that it did not hurt anything. Hurrah!

I have to hop on my bike shortly to go see Diana run in the Monster Dash!, but I did want to get something out there. Happy Halloween, all. I shall be a panda…..maybe in disguise.

October 5th, 2010

Ingrid Michaelson / Everybody

Happy is the heart that still feels pain,
Darkness drains and light will come again.
Swing open up your chest and let it in,
Just let the love, love, love begin.

September 30th, 2010

What does cheese have to do with a birthday card? Nothing. But just go with it anyway. Really.

“Spectacular”

—American Beauty

I had a most spectacular 29th birthday.

My parents visited the weekend prior, and we got to tailgate with friends and then attend a horrible Gophers game (but cool stadium), have a nice dinner and yummy cake at home, and go out for brunch on sunny Sunday. I had an almost-meditative, blissful bike ride that made me believe that heaven is a place where one has a bike ride like that every day…and lazed around.

Monday was wonderful too, with a good workout, a nice day outside, pleasantly passing day at work and then a terrific dinner at the beloved Al Vento with Jeff in the evening – bruschetta, root vegetable gnocchi, wine, tiramisu, the works. And lovely, lovely gifts, and so many wonderful messages throughout the day. I feel very loved.

My faith in numbers isn’t always what I expect it to be, so while 29 is prime, I can’t put stock in it just yet. Let’s just say that I’m always dreaming of getting older meaning getting wiser. And calmer. Yeah.

I also completed my first triathlon with Jenny Jane a week and a half ago. It was totally awesome and even cooler than I expected. I felt so, so good during it and so, so proud to have completed it. 9.5 years after taking up running ‘in case’ I ever wanted to try a triathlon, I finally completed one—pretty cool. The weather wasn’t the best, but it was really quite beatiful/peaceful to be out on the bike, fun to swim, and surprisingly easy to run….that training paid off, mentally, anyway. And it was so fun to be with Jenny and have our superfans Jeff and our Mom. Yay.

I’ve been way into “10 YEARS AGO… / NOW…” this year, and as I listen to my fall music of the American Beauty soundtrack/score, among others, I can’t help but go back there. Ten years ago I was waiting, wandering, waiting… waiting for something, but I just wasn’t sure what. Ten years ago I hoped that turning 19 would magically solve my homesickness, friendsickness, loneliness. And it didn’t, and it did; a few weeks later I moved to St. Paul, and that changed everything. And the story continues.

Now, I still feel like I’m waiting, wandering, wondering, all of those W-ings. Mostly waiting. Which is OK, and now I’m a little more sure of what it is, and a little more OK with not knowing EXACTLY what it is I’m waiting for. When I was 19, I was waiting to belong; now, at 29, with birthday messages all over my wall, happy hours jammed in to every week, events out there for me if I only wanted to partake, that’s not what I’m waiting for. I feel happy and belonging and all of that. Now I’m just waiting to see what’s next. And starting, however small, to feel OK with not knowing what that is.

Happy 29/2011.

August 24th, 2010

what I’m finding

What I’m finding is that I want to challenge my brain somehow – in a different way entirely than how it is already. And what I’m finding is that I can’t do this informally – that I might have to put together Another Way.

And what I’m finding is that I have the spark to create, but not the drive to finish. And what I’m finding is that I can’t devote so much to everyone else.

August 17th, 2010

and through all kinds of weather…!

Another bang-up weekend. To copy Trike, it’s along the lines of an EOTD but this must be an EOTW then? Not sure. Although it’s Tuesday already, so my memory is quickly fading!

I had a 3-day weekend as I took Friday (the 13th! Yeehaw!) off to go see Stephie and Mike and Anna and Mason in WI. Left super early and had my Grandma along for company which was very nice. There was crazy lightning and rain but I still prefer that to a sunny drive (which is what I had on the way home, ugh), and it was pretty cool to see. Grandma seemed to enjoy it as well. We had a good visit and chatted about her childhood – including her taking the bus everywhere, following her friend home from school, taking dance lessons and ‘those STUPID guitar lessons’, hahahhahaha. She’s funny. We also stopped for coffee “at McDonald’s, because I can get the Senior discount.” Ha!

Dropped her off then headed to see the Ogbornes. The house was awash in crazy kiddos (Anna + Mason + their three adorable cousins) and market-following Mike. We had a chat about the economy and all of those things he loves and then I was summoned downstairs by Stephie and Anna so I could swim. Crazy times in the pool with four kids under age 5 ensued. Yikes! It was a ton of fun though, and they are reasonably safe in water.

Lunchtime “GIRL TIME!!!”, then watched cartoons/the crazy rain, and played. Mason got kicked in the chest by Lincoln and then went back for more. What a wacko – adorable nonetheless, of course. Then naps and chatted with Stephie and Mike while they packed everything up. It was wonderful to see the kids and to have some time without them to chat w/ Stephie/Mike.

They then had family photo time and I was due in Madison. Off I went. The plan to score a bit of golf with my pops was off due to the rain, though he was still diligently attempting to golf/hang at the bar in Baraboo in spite of the weather. Chatted with my mom for awhile and eventually Steve arrived. We were then off to Biaggi’s after he deleted emails from his Touch. That Touch! I declined Eno Vino as I’ve been there with them often and it never winds up cheap……then again, neither did Biaggi’s. Alas, they are paying, what can I do. Enjoyed fish and spinach and salad and lots of wine and bread and had a very long dinner conversation about family and raising smart kids (vs. less-than-smart ones). It was delightful.

Home to look at MISSING MISSY online and laugh at other bonehead internet sites. Love it. Barb and Steve then watched some TV series they are into while *I* passed out (not Dad)—whoops. I blame it on the total insomnia from the night before due to FLASHING LIGHTNING from 2AM on.

Early to bed, early to rise…..well, not really, I kind of slept in. Coffee and breakfast with my mom and I was off again. Did a little successful shopping at my most favorite outlet mall and drove home in the sun. Along the way I began to feel ill. (Luckily whatever it was seems to have subsided.) Home to an exhausted Jeff. As we were having his bro over this meant NAPTIME FOR ALL and no swim-bike for me (well, and the illness prevented that; there’s always next weekend!). Felt much better after a siesta and proceeded to Cook Out until the rain. 10% chance! WTH! Brought the food in and discussed online dating sites. The Internet.

I passed out around 11, sadly, but that was OK. Slept in again and thought I had slept off the illness….evidently not totally, but it helped. We finally got up to a most beautiful, glorious-weather day—sunny, breezy, cool, blue skies everywhere. Fantastic. Too tired for a bike ride but a walk was calling our name—a walk to brunch. Loved the lazy morning of meandering down to Turtle and resolve to do it again soon. I had chocolate French toast with raspberry preserves and Jeff had a terrific breakfast sandwich with perfect potatoes. Amazing.

Walk back home in the gorgeous day to do a little yardwork/computerwork/Target-shopping. Scored more cheap Greek yogurt (FAGE even) at Super Target. Thank You Target (excepting your horrible donation strategies….seriously, get it together or I may be forced away 🙁 ). I hate errands but at least I got something good out of it.

The best part of the day came next: I laid in the lawn chair with my book in the absolutely perfect weather—just warm enough, with a lovely breeze, totally beautiful. Ahhh. I literally laid my head back and closed my eyes in bliss several times (embarrassing but true).

Still feeling ill but desperate for a bike ride, I took a very short ride around Nokomis and back home to make dinner. Was not feeling Best Meal Ever, instead rice-chicken-peapods-lemon-celery dish and salads. Terrific. Mad Men was deemed too late, so Curb was on the menu. Always good stuff. Off to an early-ish bedtime for The Week Ahead. Indeed.

And there you have it folks.

August 8th, 2010

F YES!!!!!!!

lxforever is BACK, bitches!!!!! prepare yo selves

July 26th, 2010

Hello world!

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June 26th, 2010

I got hacked

sorry guys. That’s what I get. I’ll fix it soon…or never. Hopefully by the time I am 25. Or maybe I’ll just go to blogspot. BLAHHHHHH god damn it. Oh well.

June 17th, 2010

A Simple Hola

Sooooooo I am stuck in the basement and just spent 20 minutes reading over a bunch of emails from high school. OK, email was AMAZING in 1999/2000!!! And I can’t believe how many of my friends emailed me from their PARENTS’ email addresses as they did not have their own. That is awesome.

Anyway, email was AMAZING then because no one had micro-or-regular-blogs/Facebook/whatever and in order to communicate, you had to do so individually and on a more lengthy basis, and make an EFFORT. (I’m sure phone calls were like this, but I was only into that in 10th grade. Whatevs.) I emailed almost daily with like 4-5 of my friends and about all kinds of craziness……kind of in-depth (for 18 year olds) conversations too. Weird slash awesome.

(Side note: And yeah, I’m completely COMPLETELY guilty of relying on FB/Twitter for most of my communications these days, and I know that’s sad. But…it is what it is, I guess. Anyway.)

And it was really cool to see the transition from my high school DW friend (Daniel) to my college one (Diana)—I actually got confused about why Daniel would send me an email about leotard catalogs until I realized….DUH!

So yeah. I know a lot of people hated high school but as I’ve said, I kind of had a grand old time. So that was fun. Oh yeah – the reason that I am sequestered in the basement (and forced to miss Amber’s art launch party aaaaaarggggh!!!) is that there are tornadoes appearing all over the STATE right now. WTF??? We’re under a watch and I think they’re dissipating but Jeff as my loving husband does not wish me to go out into possible craziness. Bless his heart.

Well since I’m here…might as well do a little arts and crafts. Adios.