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May 29th, 2011

workaholic homebodies

“This is like..you’re almost glad to be handicapped.”

—Seinfeld

time 9:46 pm feeling achy but accomplished wearing grey hoodie (“I weep in my grey hoody.” -Meis, 2006) music Beatles, The National, & POP ready for HEAT next food and bed

I’m sitting on the couch with one ice pack strapped to my knee and another tied to my hip. Feels like good ol’ gymnastics days, except I’m not clear on what exactly caused this pain. Right leg you fail me. Alas. Our internet seems to be out so I’m trapped icing, writing a static update and watching Seinfeld at Jeff’s choosing. Funny how I’ve seen like eight episodes total, yet I seem to always see one I’ve already viewed. Hm.

This is the second Memorial Day weekend in a row that we’ve spent being basically homebody workaholics. (Two years ago I was in Cali attending Mason’s baptism as his godmother, three I don’t remember, four we were at Katie and Bill’s wedding. Anyway!) Yesterday was crazy yard work/planting/gardening/car-cleaning/laundry, today was major kitchen reorganization in preparation for the dishwasher install/loss of cabinet (me) and finishing up the yard work (Jeff). Before that I got in some crafting and a fine swim. We also hit up Sue’s for a little appetizer hang-out with Erik and Kels. But anyway. Back to the productivity. It was AWESOME! We got soooooooo much done, Jeff is an amazing yard fiend, and I put together our new kitchen puzzle most wonderfully. LOVE!!

We just can’t help it. Sometimes we’re workaholics.

We also went to Fort Snelling cemetery to visit Jeff’s Grandpa’s grave. RIP. Thank you soldiers.

Tomorrow is supposed to be HOT which I will love. Hoping for less work and more baking, bike-riding, and chilling out. I’m so ready for summer, busy as it already seems.

Other random thoughts:
-20s your days are numbered. BE ON NOTICE. I think this is a good thing.
-iPad just tried to autocorrect ‘thing’ to ‘thugging’. ??
-Sadly there is NOT an app for everything. Dang.
-in the mood for having a party! soon?
-Tornadomania! WTF.
-Almost June. Also WTF.

Since I am an adult I believe I will now have cookies for dinner. PIEOW! Happy Memorial Day, all.

May 27th, 2011

Welcome to Jeff’s, Home of the Happy People / Easy Bake Oven / Turning Point / EOTD

“Never doubt that you’re the one! / and you can have your dreams! / YOU’RE THE BEST…!”

—Karate Kid

“I’m only this far / and only tomorrow leads the way / I’m coming waltzing back and moving into your head / please”

—Dave Matthews Band

time 10:40 am feeling fantastic wearing brown shirt, cool new jeans, amazing cute clogs from Jeff ready for anything next Tweet, retool headers, lunch w/ Tiffany

First part of title from Ed Henry of CNN’s Twitter feed (on his Obama Euro tour 2011)

You also should check out the reviews/comments on this Playmobil security checkpoint toy. Ha.

Today is a Turning Point. I mean that. This isn’t to say I won’t have my rough days but I really do feel like today marks a new day—The Rest Of Your Life, if you will. All of this shit I have been dealing with—it will work out. I just know it.

4 months to 30. Good time to have a Turning Point.

Yesterday was smashingly amazing. It deserves an EOTD (thanks Trike):

Got up early and got in to work early for the update. I was extremely happy because I had gotten to sleep in the same bed as Jeff finally (I had banished myself to another room due to my horrible cough), AND my cold was improving. Already a good day. The sun was brilliant and the sky a fantasyland blue. Drove in and swung by Janine’s for an iced latte to combat my tiredness. The barista told me he had “basically two Masters’ degrees” in barista-ing and proceeded to proclaim he would make me THE BEST iced latte ever. We did some tweaking and…it kind of was THE BEST. He made me a bit late for the update but his devotion to his craft and natural happiness was worth it.

Update complete. It turned out we were missing a key cable for our guest presenter who was arriving from NYC shortly. My boss had to go to field day and my other coworker was unavailable so I was tasked with traveling to Uptown to secure said cable. Briefly considered driving, then thought of THE BUS! Brilliant! Rode the 6 to Uptown listening to my iPod in the sunny day. Overwhelmed with Minneapolis love. Forced to run errands in the bright day in my favorite city? ABSOLUTELY. Picked up the part and rode on back. By the time I returned it was time for the guest lecture. Kevin Quealy of the New York Times’ graphics department was kind of enough to come out here and chat about a million amazing things. I couldn’t stop taking notes. What a smart guy, and so nice besides (so Minnesotan! He even rode his bike to the lecture after having flown in. WOW.). Self-deprecating etc. What a doll. “Nice job, arrow man.”

We then headed upstairs for a fancy team lunch with Kevin running Q&A. We sat down to beautiful little plates of tiramisu already out and then feasted on asparagus, walleye, salad and potatoes. VEGGIES!!! Incredible. It was a most delightful conversation and I was very very happy. I immediately followed Kevin on Twitter and set about my day. However that day was very short as I had gotten in early, I then left early to ride my BIKE! It was another mind-blowingly brightly beautiful day and I just took it all in. Love those lakes. Home for a hurried shower then off to see Alyssa and Kristin (& Axes!). We talked for almost 3 hours but it was so wonderful that it felt more like a few minutes had gone by. They are so wonderful and I am glad they can accept me and all my semi-autistic tendencies! Oh Apt 3. I have some really, really terrific people in my life. I am very, very lucky. Coffeeshop kicked us out and so home to do dishes/eat beets (more veggies/new obsession!)/drink sleepytime tea. Fell into a deep sleep next to Jeff. Filled with optimism and hope. A New Day.

May 26th, 2011

just a blink of an eye

“And what’s four years really, just a blink of an eye.”

—Sharan, 2005

“We’re just kids / we spent all night on the phone / it’s a kid thing / I sleep better when i’m not alone / Kid things / seemed like nothing at all / kid things / make it better than it was / we’re just kids / it’s just like driving a car / it’s a kid thing / and the further out the closer in you are.”

—Counting Crows

time 3:02 pm feeling great but full wearing red overshirt, light blue tank top (D!), black pants ready for sunny sun next the juggle

Pretty sure 4 years ago yesterday Jeff asked me to marry him (thanks Barb for your super-memory powers [now I know where I get it]). Luckiest woman alive to have him in my life like this! Also happy 4 year anniversary to Katie and Bill.

Crazy juggly week but loving it. Hopefully an EOTD of today’s great day (or so I believe it shall be) soon, too.

May 25th, 2011

reliving my youth

“I dress up with a conscience / when I think you’ll be watching / I say all the right things / I don’t know what I mean / … / I am lovely and weak / I am foul when I speak / I am strange when I’m kind / I am frying my mind // Am I / Am I / getting through?”

—Sheryl Crow, Am I Getting Through (Part 1 & 2)

time 1:19 pm feeling cheery wearing crisp white shirt, new gray pants, cool black shoes ready for cooking some beets! next retool headers

Hanging out with Katy was a smashing success! Miss her already. It was really great to hang out just with her, and weirdly it was nice to relive my youth and hang out in Madison, too, ha.

Now I am back in Minneapolis and it’s almost June. Kind of blowing my mind. I know I’ve mentioned I’ve been having a hard time but I definitely have good days so I don’t want to leave that part out. This inspires me though to perhaps reinvigorate my fish-comic of another hard-ish time in my life (spring semester 2004), since that kept me sane and it makes me happy to be able to have concrete evidence of living and not just muddling through those days. Walking man! Comics! REVIVED!

(I really do need to make a comic for real, though. Meant To Be. But for now, just a coping mechanism if it happens. I wonder if this time it will be fish? Have to think. Maybe back to people.)

The weather in this country/world is insane and must be stopped. Seriously. And to be petty, I would really like nice weather this weekend. Is that so much to ask (apparently)?? I want to plant things, dammit. In glorious sun…

I would also like to point out here that the two sections of the paper I always have (well, since I was 15) and continue to read first are (1) the comics (2) the business section. This should be a Sign.

I have a horrible cold that is kicking my ass. I really hope it is gone soon. Not Cool Man. It’s freakin’ MAY. Come on.

Somehow I only have 5 articles left on nytimes for this month though I’ve been judicious. I blame Paul Krugman!

RANDOM MEMORY (thanks Trike):
(I actually remember this) One time my family all went mini golfing at Vitense (much like Katy and I did on Monday, pieow!). It was during the day though. This is when we lived on the near-er West side vs. far West. So we lived near Vitense. ANYWAY. Jenny was just 3 or so. We all looked away for one second and somehow in that one second she managed to fall into the little fake river (2″ deep) and got completely soaked. My Dad had to take her home for a change of clothes. My Mom and I kept playing without them. Then Jenny returned and we got back to business. Though I’d love to know what kind of mini-golfing a 3-year-old can do, anyway.

THE END.

May 23rd, 2011

living in the past

Lexi: “I thought if I wore silver and black my mood would improve.” Alyssa: “Good idea. I thought if I wore a big bloody splotch over my heart my mood would improve.”

—Lexi and Alyssa, 11/13/03

“If you feel it / let it happen / keep on dancin’ til the world ends”

—Ms. Spears

“Don’t go out in the rain! / If you’re made of sugar! / Or if you’re a witch / Because / If you do! / You will melt and die”

—Katy and me, 1999, SSMSCFA

time 11:51 am feeling chilly and sick but good wearing blue sweatshirt, red tank top, green crops ready for hanging out with Katy! next lunch?

So I am working from Madison, staying at good ol’ 6733 by Middleton, waiting to hang out with Katy tonight, who is staying on good ol’ Jacobs Way by Elver. Last night as I called my friends husband on the giant-but-was-once-so-cool cordless phone that I spent much of HS chattering away on (pre-AIM/ICQ of 12th grade), I very much felt blast-from-the-past-ish.

It helps little that I also spent some time last night going through a bunch of old papers and junk from middle school/high school (mostly Spanish, side note, damn I was good at Spanish!) at my parents’ request, as they are cleaning out our bedrooms/making them more guest-room-ish. Ahahahahaha. In this pile I found many amazing things, including several interesting drawings/story ideas, but two such things stood out:

(1) the start of LISTS! This must have been pre-assignment-notebook-era. I kept at least a daily list on my L-shaped notepad. It is JUST like what I did on index cards pre-iPod Touch and it is INSANE. If ever there was doubt that I was OCD…let it be no more! I am, and have been for almost the entirety of my life. Dang.

(2) I also came across a 10-reasons-we-think-Lexi-is-great list from two of my BFFs from my 18th birthday. It was a pleasant surprise and it was even more of a pleasant surprise to realize that these folks were spot-on. I mean, for all the crap I give myself, I’m a decent person. The intro to the list suggested I keep that list with my at all times, and though it is now almost 12(!) years old, I think I shall. Very uplifting indeed.

So, that is that. It is quite odd to be in Madison on a weekday/night but quite nice as well. Last night we had a fancy feast at 6733 which included grilled steak, twice-baked potatoes (my mom is the queen of these FYI), a lovely green salad, watermelon, and strawberry shortcake for dessert. Heaven! The storm threatened but did not make its way to us. I did manage to drive through WI and avoid every.single.stormcell, though. (Again, if there ever was doubt that I lead a charmed life…let it be no more!)

My parents spent awhile showing me their different bird situations (wren house, chickadee house, and now apparently an owl’s nest). Pretty cool. Apparently that dead bird I photographed at Easter was a baby owl! (My dad looked up the shape/color of the eggshell.) Who knew?! (Besides Steve, that is.) They are way into birds which is pretty fun(ny). Time to retire methinks!

We then watched Borgias on Showtime, a show my Dad is in love with for obvious reasons: (1) it’s about Rome (2) it’s about history thus (3) it’s about HISTORIC ROME (4) it’s about the pope/Catholicism’s mysteries (5) it’s about a CRIME FAMILY. My Mom was less impressed, however. But it was pretty cool. Then my mom started an episode of Shameless (also Showtime – seriously, they have fancy cable here!) and I was totally hooked. HOOKED! I need to see that show again! So I stayed up too late and then had a HORRIBLE sleep due to my horrible ass-kicking cold. Alas.

This morning I got to do the cool spin bike at my parents’ Anytime and then set about working. Ideal conditions, open deck door by an enormous backyard, lovely. Our house in Minneapolis was unaffected by tornadoes and Jeff planted a tree AND got started on some stuff we’re doing to it. YES. I am thinking of those who were affected by the storms, though. Ouch.

Yesterday before I hit the road I swam at the U then picked up a white chocolate coldpress and a mini daybreaker sandwich. The swim combined with awesome food made me gloriously blissful. The drive then flew by listening to music and reminiscing. AND I avoided storms. Fate.

Busy times. Back to work.

May 17th, 2011

every day can’t be good / no feeling is final

“Let everything happen to you / Beauty and terror / Just keep going / No feeling is final”

—Rainer Maria Rilke

All my friends got flowers in their eyes / but I got none this season / .. / Waiting for the trains that just never come / Beginning to believe in / the disappearing nature of the people we have been / We have begun to change / into the worst kind of people”

—Counting Crows, High Life

time 2:31 pm feeling down wearing gray shirt, tan skirt, pretty sandals ready for the next phase of my life next app + then cavity drilling and filling + then home

Just keep going.

Again I’m not going to pretend that everything is cool all the time. I do enough of that on Facebook/Twitter, eh. Yes, I have an amazing life blablabla and for that I am extremely grateful (duh) but man. This has been (and will continue to be for the foreseeable future) a tough time in my life. “So it goes.” (—Kurt Vonnegut)

I just need to find a way to muddle through. I just don’t know how.

Anyway. Enough. In an effort to be more positive, a list of great things about my weekend:
-bike ride up to UMN to swim and back! SUPER POSITIVE b/c (a) no gas wasted (b) gorgeous bright sunny weather! (c) lots of physical activity (d) swimming! & with the 50m lanes, no less, love. Possibly the HIGHLIGHT of my weekend.
-trip down ‘memory lane’ with Jeff on Sunday morning. Thank You High School! LOL.
-amazing movie Friday night! It even sold out when we were in line, ha ha. (We went to see Bridesmaids at Jeff’s request.) I now have a newfound respect for and/or obsession with Kristin Wiig.
-prior to that, an amazing dinner at India Palace. Adore!
-superb Yoga Yak yoga session Saturday morning…Thank You Yoga Yak!
-in light of the rainy weather Saturday, pleasant (believe it or not) shopping trip for Totally Unnecessary but Totally Awesome workout top. Thank You Stephie.
-finishing some freelance!
-Jeff, because he is…THE BEST. I mean that in every way!!!

I know there was more but that’s what you get.

I am reading Delusions of Gender and enjoying it. Am I just a huge dork? Maybe? Ha. Now hopefully I can speak more intelligently on the topic of smashing gender bias. Or something.

I was going to make another list of Things I Am Looking Forward To but that just makes me dwell on the future. Not sure that’s where I ought to be?

The story continues. No feeling is final, no feeling is final, no feeling is final…

May 12th, 2011

and now for something completely different

“As I was a-walking / and a-talking one day / I met my own true love / as he came that way / Oh to meet him was a pleasure / though the courting was a woe! / … / Oh the cuckoo she’s a pretty bird / she singeth as she flies / she bringeth good tidings / she telleth no lies / she sucketh white flowers / for to keep her voice clear / and the more she singeth cuckoo / the summer draweth near / and the more she singeth cuckoo / the summer draweth near.”

The sprig of thyme: The cuckoo (yes, that is an iTunes link, you should buy this song)

“Goodbye whoever you are I don’t remember your name!”

—one of the 6-year-olds we teach, to Diana and I

“But then what is the point of my epic journey?”

—Jenny Mason, 2007

time 5:00 pm on the dot feeling hungry, again wearing super awesome fancy brown Banana Republic dress ready for Hanging Out! with Jeff! next app dev, fish cooking, Hanging Out

^ I was reading some old entries and realized I had stopped with the “Details” part. And I missed it. It was fun to re-read some of them (especially the clothes, especially in HS! Ha!). So, it is Back and hopefully it shall remain.

Anyway. I was realizing the other day I never wrote about our wedding/honeymoon publicly, even though it was so kickass. Ehh whatever, suffice it to say it WAS super kickass, just everything about it. So. There.

However, I did have a specific memory from it/that time that I felt compelled to write down. In light of Obama’s Osama killing (side note: I generally do not endorse killing/eye-for-an-eye, despite my proclaimed violent/aggressive nature, but in this case, there is enough gray area for me to be OK with it), there is a massive Newsweek issue devoted to all of it which I perused at the gym this morning. THAT is really why this all came up. So.

First I will say that it’s true—I still have a massive, judgment-clouding, can-do-little-wrong, blinders-on crush on Obama…and pretty much his whole family. What can I say, that’s the kind of celeb I enjoy. So take this all with a giant grain of salt.

In 2008 I got a little (a lot, sorry) obsessed with 08AMA/Obama 08 and was way into it. That, along with the Olympics, made 2008 pretty great. (Oh hey, and getting married….DUH!) Despite my political pessimism (will return to this later) about most things, I have a very good feeling about 2012 being a grand ol’ repeat. F yeah!!! Olympics + Obama. THAT is how I roll. Already excited for 2012.

Anyway. So I spent a lot of 2008 fretting about the election. Frankly even aside from my bleeding heart, I wanted a nonwhite president for freakin’ ONCE, and plus, like I said…kind of had a crush! THIS is the guy I wanted to see succeed, no doubt. (Just like Shawn Johnson, bless.) Anyway. I scoured forecasts, political blogs, CNN, etc., to try and decipher what kind of a chance Barack Hussein Obama had of being our next presidente. I spent many a time debating this with other politically-minded friends (Repubs or no) and dreamed about a positive outcome (i.e., ‘my guy’ winning). I freaked out over Palin and watched polls feverishly. Yes, bizarre, but again, how I roll.

And then… sometime, just a few weeks before our wedding, mid-October… I had a friendly Republican friend come up and ask me, as he always did, what I thought about Barack’s chances. For the first time, with total confidence, trying to keep the swagger out of my voice, I said slowly, “I think it’s gonna be a blowout.” And I totally believed it. Obama had this; now we just had to wait for election day for this reality to take place.

The ONLY bad thing about our honeymoon was that it kept us out of the country for election day. SAD! (Note, yes of course we voted absentee.) But as it turned out, being in Europe was almost as good if not even better in ways. We went to bed in Sorrento just as the earliest of early results were trickling in. I was afraid I would be too excited to sleep, but jet lag worked its magic. When we awoke in our spacious white-tiled, green-accented Hotel Eden room, sunlight was pouring into the room—the presidential race must surely had been decided in the U.S. We immediately flicked on CNN International and there it was: a beautiful sea of royal blue.

Any fellow lib political-nerd psychos like me know what that felt like, so I will spare you. (But wow. Magical.) We did a little celebrating in the room and then headed out into the world, a little sad at not having fellow Americans to freak out about this with.

But look! Here, there is a special gelato flavor devoted to Obama (slightly racist, but WCYD, it’s Italy)! And there, is a European carrying around an Obama bag! And here, you have “Il Mundo Cambio” posters in Rome with Obama’s photo on them! And there, you have Brits congratulating you, EVERYONE congratulating you, on your new president! And here, for the first time, when asked where you are from, you crow “United States!” with abandon, with pride, and receive a joyous reception.

OK I am making this much more gooey than it needs to be but really it was quite amazing.

I only am compelled to write this out because I realize I still feel this way about Obama even with all of his shortcomings (bites off more than he can chew, too centrist, too people-pleasing, etc.). And I feel pretty good about 2012. Even in 2011. F yeah.

Political misgivings = Minnesota has made a move to allow voting on outlawing gay marriage in our next election. THIS election I am completely freaked out for now and I am so, so sad. I can’t believe it’s come to this. I mean, frickin’ Minneapolis is the gayest city in the US! And we’re going to outlaw gay marriage?! REALLY. Really, MN. So sad. I am trying to figure out if I can get to the rally Monday. F this.

Sarah’s bachelorette party was one of my most favorite evenings out in YEARS and I was thrilled beyond words to see her. Tomorrow = DATE NIGHT USA with Jeff, Friday the 13th, and the start of a rainy, should-do-freelance weekend. OUT.

May 5th, 2011

in other news (nostalgia again!)

“Through these eyes / looks like I’m home tonight”

—Smashing Pumpkins, LXv1.0, etc.

It’s that time of year again! Nostalgia time. Get out your lawn chairs and soak it in, folks.

No, I don’t really intend to do a long memory-lane post or anything this time ’round…just realizing it is indeed that Time Of Year (already May 5…!) and all that jazz. Most pointedly at this point it has becoming strikingly clear to me what an incredibly GOOD decision I made ~8 years ago…that is, the decision that landed me with Jeff. Blah blah blah you’ve heard it before but really and truly this year has only underscored what luck we had in finding each other. I won’t go into it but I do feel pretty dang lucky and somehow…fortune-seeking?…in having, in the end, relied on my heart to guide me, even as I’m all about logic the other thousands of days of my life.

None of that expressed adequately what I mean, but, whatever.

Nostalgia time! Bachelorette/other hijinks for and with Sarah/True Ten this weekend will satiate a lot of that. I think I’m also in a mood like this again thanks to Chloe graduating (!!!). I kind of can’t believe she’s graduating. I was looking through old journals collecting funny quotes of hers and realized she was, like, SEVEN YEARS OLD when I was writing that stuff…meaning I was 18. Meaning…high school was a Long Time Ago. Wow.

Again, failure to express myself adequately here but, whoa. 30.

Double dentist date-appointment tonight. Woo hoo! We know how to do Cinco de Mayo in style ;). Luckily D and I had lupitas and margaritas last night preemptively.

Out.

May 5th, 2011

While the band’s playing / gorgeous Saturday

Last Saturday was spent gloriously with Jeff. It was an incredibly wonderful day. We slept in, we lazed around, we did some chores and ate breakfast leisurely, we went to the gym for a long and intense workout without worrying about the clock (side note, some dude hit on me, at first I thought he was a fellow gymnastics fan so chatted him up, then quickly realized he was just watching me do gymn conditioning, CREEPY ha ha, luckily Jeff came over to stretch with me shortly thereafter), I got an overpriced sugary cold press, we fed the fish, we ate some lunch (note: not the fish), we threw in some laundry.

We randomly went to IKEA and browsed for almost two hours, leisurely strolling around and inspecting everything, marveling over small space solutions, talking about what we could do furniture- and house-configuration-wise to our little home. We went to get a burger, we came home and watched the second half of Groundhog Day that happened to be on TV, we did a little work. I took my sweet time making a yummy dinner and we lit candles and ate late at 9pm, listening to such pretty classical MPR music in the background and chatting about life.

We played Super Mario Brothers together on Wii (so difficult! but I did pass a level all by myself), we ate Easter candy, I surfed the internet while Jeff watched playoff hockey, we watched the end of Saturday Night Live. We put away laundry just past midnight and crashed into bed, sleeping in yet again on Sunday. A beautiful Saturday.

More to come.

April 24th, 2011

easter / birds

“Faith is the bird that feels the light and sings when the dawn is still dark.”

Happy birthday Jenny. Happy Easter all.