January 3rd, 2012
2012, year of the Beaver
“I run to the river and dive straight in / I pray that the water will drown out the din / but as the water fills my mouth / it couldn’t wash the echoes out”
—Florence + The Machine, Drumming Song
2012: year of Survival. Also of the Beaver (HT Ariel). Also of elections, Jenny’s WEDDING/etc.!!!, Dark Knight Rises, OLYMPICS!!!, and more that I can’t remember right now.
So, January. A lot of people come in to January with the aim of kicking ass and taking names. Many years into supposed ‘adulthood’, I have finally accepted that January (and February, and March, generally) for me is about survival/grinding through. Januaries of my past/adolescence were generally about the flurry of December excitement(holidays!!!)/stress(gymnastics!!!) coalescing into sheer fear as we had competitions every weekend (and January was destined to be crashy). This was definitely true in HS, and sort-of in college as well. For many years this masked my actual feelings for Jan/Feb/Mar so that is my excuse for just realizing this NOW (at age 30).
However! I have an amazing new sunlight light (thanks Mom!) AND hope/feel that recognizing my limitations in these months will make them more bearable. Starting…now.
Moving along. We had a really nice NYE, actually. We spent the day moving Erik, then celebrating Xmas w/ Sue et. al., which was REALLY, really nice!, then dropped in on Jeff’s Grandma which was delightful. She is a sarcastic old lady and I love her for that (um, clearly she handed this down to Jeff, so…). We then came home and partook in our typical ‘old-person’ NYE of Hanging Out, making donations, eating cheese (actually, we did this on 1/2 instead), and being alone. It was actually a really great day of family, listening to wonderful music of 2011, and being together. And then the magical evening snow to cap it off.
Now I am on a mission to find out what happened to my doctor. I hope she just moved practices and not states and/or quit. Gah!! It figures. I finally find a decent PCP and she takes off. Whatevs.
Also on a mission to read Infinite Jest by the time it is due at the library. Um. Since I am on page 60 and there are 1000+ pages, and it is due in <2 weeks, clearly this is not going to happen. But. One can dream? (Yes I should just buy it.) Also on a mission for lunch. Adios!