lxforever

“Never doubt that you’re the one / and you can have your dream!”

—Karate Kid / Joe “Bean” Esposito

“Oh come child / come and rescue me / ’cause you have seen some unbelievable things”

—Cat Power

It’s no longer March 4th/March Forth but I thought I’d use that anyway. It is MARCH! Beware the Ides of March, in like a lion, etc. etc. I am so over March and so over winter. I think last year’s early spring spoiled me completely (remember when I was in my backyard in my swimsuit in mid-March?! WTF/awesome!!!). We just have a lot of snow still, and we are forecast to stay below the 30s for the next several days or so. L to the AME. But…someday, it will be spring. Hah!

Anyway I come here today with a nervewracking but important idea in mind: The Truth! It is getting increasingly difficult to update lxforever/keep up with EOT(X)s without divulging this information, and though I am still superstitious(knock wood!)/paranoid(who actually reads here?!), and still don’t know if I’ll ever share this on stupid Facebook/etc., and ALSO don’t intend to violate my daughter’s privacy the way many ‘internet parents’ seem to do this way/these days, I do value recording things in some fashion, and so here it is: I am pregnant. Jeff and I are expecting a baby in late June. We feel extremely lucky and grateful and hopeful. What a wonderful world this could be.

Obviously…I have seen some terrible things happen in the past year and so I’m very much of the mindset “I’ll believe it when I see it”, but at the same time…I’m a planner. I have to plan. And she’s kicking away like a champ, and that is really reassuring. So I will continue to hope that all goes as well as it possibly can and trust in tricky tricky Nature. Or whatever.

Ummmm…so again, I don’t know who reads here, but if it’s who I expect, you all already KNOW THIS ALREADY, so, yay! And if you are a creep and didn’t know (ha!), now you do, I guess. And please still refrain from posting anything on various Social Media Networks if you will please (y’know, ’cause you all care so darn much about ME and MY LIFE…ha! JK/not really). I spent a good 5-6 weeks in Jan/Feb freaking out and scared that this was not going to work out, but now I just have to wait and trust the process, which we are doing (Jeff is great at this, I am not – he has seriously been so, so incredibly amazing, I am incredibly lucky to have him), and I’m feeling 1000000000000x times better than I was a mere month or so ago. YAY, again. And so now it’s time to plan this hopeful reality for real.

This is all to say that a really cool carseat is set to be shipped to us today and I’m really, dorkily, pathetically excited about it ;).

ANYWAY! That is that. Now maybe I can actually write here without being super sneaky. (That is, if I publish this at all…….we’ll see.) Also I’ve been busy doing baby-researching things (almost all of the info-needed thanks to CHRISTIE who is a GODSEND) and work-doing things so less time to write. Also I am very paranoid, as mentioned. So, yeah.

Yesterday we attended a Caspian concert!!! It was AMAZING, so immersive and so beautiful, and they get so darn into it, they are sweating buckets by the end. They played Sycamore(?) to close, and all five of them ended up on the drums. It was SUPER INTENSE and awesome and I wish I could see them do that again and again. They were very humble and grateful for all of the fans who showed up – super cute. And Jeff was just over the moon to see his current favorite band AGAIN and this time doing a full concert (vs. tiny opener). OMG. So terrific. I had never been to 7th Street Entry either and it is quite perfect for something like this. Intimate and grungy. Great, great night! We also dined at Ginger Hop before, with yet another fantastic server. (Seriously, do they pay their servers really well or what?! They are super.) We have two more concerts coming up in April too. Spring of concerts!! But I do think Caspian was the highlight, you really need to check them out. NOW.

Last weekend we took a few days off to do some house reorganization and baby-life-preparing. We spent all day Friday putting together a giant wardrobe thing that I LOVE (so much good space saved in our tiny house! I have my own little closet in our ROOM now – yeah!!!), but was a HUGE beast and totally tired us out. Whew. Good thing I didn’t work out that day! Getting old man. It kind of sucks. Anyway. We are trying to sell my old bed at which point we can start putting together other (baby) furniture…woohoo! Then when Jenny comes to visit she can sleep in the crib. JK. 😉 Anyway, very productive and very good. Now bring us spring, Earth!

Pregnancy is sort of scary (duh, as I imagine parenting to be…we’ll see). Amazing, and so exciting, but scary. You spend the first few months excited but hesitant to expect too much, in case things don’t work out…then it looks like they might. There’s a list of things you should and shouldn’t do, which makes sense and isn’t too tricky. At 20 weeks, they give you a sheet with signs of preterm labor that you should be watching for – scary and intense, but making it seem more real. At 24 weeks, you register for the hospital stay, and at 28, they ask you to start doing kick counts every day. Slowly over time your responsibility (and the sense of reality!) increases, which I suppose is a very good, if tiny, preparation for the parenting part. And while this is something I’ve been wanting my whole life, and we couldn’t feel more lucky or excited to be here, it’s daunting. But it will be the thrill of a lifetime to learn it all alongside our daughter.

Happy Pi Day tomorrow / happy anniversary tomorrow to my parents!

ETA: And today is a perfectly symmetrical (almost) day, 3-13-13! BOOM!
ETA2: I also finally updated the link to Diana’s blog in the sidebar. You should check it out (hoping this forces her to update).