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“making miracles is hard work / most people give up / before they happen”

—Sheryl Crow, Maybe That’s Something…yes I have no shame

“I must become a lion hearted girl / ready for a fight / before I make the final sacrifice”

—Florence + The Machine, Rabbit Heart

“One friend came in / out of nowhere, with lit / sparklers in both her hands for me / and saved the day / when I had run away / to envy and black feelings // And the world at night / could see the greatest light / too much light to deny.”

—The Innocence Project, July

time 11:36 AM feeling exhausted wearing red white and blue…weirdly reading back to Infinite Jest I guess music misc January stuff ready for SLEEEEEEEEEEEEEP next work

Hello. Nothing sinister happened. I think after 50 solid weeks of Events in 2011, I am just paranoid/waiting for the proverbial ‘other shoe’ to drop in on 2012. However, I cannot live like this forever. So. I assume eventually it will let up.

In the meantime… ‘paranoia paranoia everyone is coming to get me!’

Anyway. Instead, yesterday was rife with emotions. YES I am an annoyingly EMO person!!!!!, if this blog has not taught you that much, I don’t know why you bother, ha ha ha. NO, nothing happened to trigger said day of gratefulness/reflection/whatever, it just existed. And I existed in it. Quite a good feeling, actually, but I know I can’t put it into words so I won’t try.

Yesterday I also finished my first book of 2012. The Book Thief. Recommended by Sarah L. (A YA novel I believe.) I cried at the end. For those of you keeping track at home, yes, that is the 4th straight new book in a row that I’ve finished that has made me cry (My Friend Leonard, Corrections, Freedom [no I never finished the Mary Karr books, oops. Typical]). I am still thinking about the characters. Yes, I am turning into emo, sentimental, old-lady mush. Really it is all about Having Each Other which is more or less the note all of these books ended on. All you have is yourself and the people in your life, in the end.

LIFE!

And mush.

Last weekend was hot/killer yoga with Jeff(love!), lots of reading, UMN meet w/ Diana!, and a fine swim. Coming up: yoga with Alyssa (early risers!), dinner party with Sarah L, more reading. Possibly skating. No gymnastics meet (UMN, not me!) this weekend though. Possibly making Valentines.

ON THAT NOTE: Do you want a Valentine? If so, please send me your address and I will send you one. This is a real, paper Valentine, FYI, and I am happy to make them for anyone.

This is a terrible update and I blame it on being in a sleep trap. I am totally overtired for no good reason. Coffee has failed to do the trick. I prescribe more sleep, at least whatever is possible tomorrow/Friday. Tonight: parks is back on. Come on little 3-year-olds…

Happy Wednesday! W.O.Weds. ‘Watch out for that knife.’

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