November 22nd, 2011
make it happen / hang in there
“And oh, poor Atlas / The world’s a beast of a burden / You’ve been holding on a long time”
—Florence + The Machine
“Seven devils all around me! / Seven devils in my house! / See they were there when I woke up this morning / they’ll be there when the day is done”
—Florence + The Machine
“I know everybody lets you down / I’ll do the same / but know I’ll always be around / this can remain the same”
—Florence + The Machine…yes I am OBSESSED! Thanks Jeff!!
time 8:52 AM feeling better wearing peachy shirt, sweater vest, velvety pants reading A Million Little Pieces music Florence + The Machine!!!! ready for TG break next work then break!
I’m doing a little better but not really ready to talk about it, or maybe ever. Seven Devils, it feels like. But yesterday wound up being a really good day and thus deserves a quick EOTD (yes, documented in fish comic but here is good, too):
EOTD 11/21/11:
Woke up way too early after staying up way too late. Zelda. Up and out of bed and in the car by 5:26AM. Yep. To DT Core Power yoga for a Level 2 class. Dark and cold drive followed by dim and hot yoga class. Ass-kicking-amazingness! I do enjoy yoga but this was the first time I truly felt challenged while doing it. So awesome. Sweaty blue mat, scales + arm balancing, stretching = I can believe this is a retired person’s gymnastics. Almost everyone was better than me too which was great.
Sweat-soaked, to work to shower and get on with the early day. Lots of excitement over the short but busy workweek we’re having. Treats. Nice email from a dear friend who’s looking out for me. Grilling Joe in prep for his meeting next week. Getting super tired and consulting Diana and Jeff who suggest I go home for a nap rather than go help Cassie coach. Good idea. Long nap idea thwarted by helping Patti figure something out in Word before I left work but I FIGURED IT OUT and it was awesome and I kicked ass and felt USEFUL. Yep.
Home and quick nap by the glittering Xmas tree. Ameliorate the lack of sleep. Quick nap = feeling refreshed. Errands to IKEA. They are out of the brush I went there for. Damn. Whatever. Quick errands then meet Kelly at Pardon My French in Eagan. Pardon My French is a delightful little place full of wonderful servers, lovely pastries, and fairly-priced yummy food. A gem in Eagan. I enjoyed chamomile tea, a beet/white radish/carrot salad, and a tiny marzipan pumpkin. Amazing. I also enjoyed talking to Kelly. She is an old and dear friend. She is getting into tea instead of pop so she had some tea with her tart. Time flew and before we knew it two hours were up/they were closing. Sad to part ways but off we were.
On the drive home I felt more relaxed and calm than I had in weeks, despite the dark-dark-dark chatter Kelly and I had. Even hopeful. I believe the doom loop began to break on Saturday at Susan and Peter’s (this deserves an update too but basically they are just good, pleasant folk) and finally dissipated with this meetup with Kelly. I thank being understood by Kelly and chamomile tea for this (not that the tea understood me, but that it was relaxing). “All anyone wants is to feel understood.”
Home and Jeff was deep in Zelda-land/love. I love it!!! It makes him so happy and that makes me very happy. I stayed up too late reading emails and writing comics and watching Jeff play Zelda and finally we went to bed. And I finally felt like I’d had a great day.
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Happy birthday Cole, cousin Lauren, Toby, and Allie!