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“Each winter as the year grows older / we each grow older too / the chill sets in a little colder / the verities we knew / seem shaken and untrue”

—William & Annabeth Gay, Each winter as the year grows older

“I’m not here looking for absolution / because I found myself an old solution / This is his body / This is his love
Such selfish prayers, I can’t get enough”

—Florence + the Machine, Bedroom Hymns

time 2:13 PM feeling content wearing Vikes shirt…FAIL reading A Million Little Pieces music Florence + the Machine ready for swimming next swim

I am supposed to be answering emails but here I am updating. Story of my life (except it’s 2:13 PM not AM, heh heh).

We had a very ordinary, very lovely weekend just hanging around the house with not much to do, but were very productive at the same time. Lots of cooking…lots of Christmas lights being on…reading…Christmas music…laundry/chores/domesticity(“I am being a WIFE!”)…errands and miscellaneous shopping (including a bus ride to MOA on Black Friday – I’m sorry, but why haven’t I bused there before?! So easy and fast!!! Love it! and totally worth the crazy trip that afternoon)…putting lights on the fish tank (semi-fail)…drinking wine/prosecco and watching Social Network randomly…Gopher hockey…nice long phone chat w/ my Grandma…hot yoga on Friday where we thought we were going to DIE but kind of loved it, sickly, followed by drinking smoothies in a parking lot in Edina witnessing some weirdo in a red truck, and then buying underwear…just BEING TOGETHER! We are lovers. It is great.

We have very busy workweeks of craziness ahead so I spent most of this morning cooking (not coking) up a storm so we’d have good food to nourish this busyness. FOOD, food from scratch. Kind of obsessed.

I also meant to draw. There is still time.

With the crazy week ahead I am extremely grateful for a very restful and wonderful FIVE DAYS OFF. It reminds me of ‘winter breaks’ of days of yore (aka high school) and it makes work feel very far away…yet at the same time I am kind of excited to get back to work, too. 2+ years in and I am enjoying where I’m at workwise, so that says something. I think the restful loooong weekend helps, and I will say this – I’d be game for a 2-day-workweek/5-day-weekend forevermore ;). No matter what the job.

I don’t think this is the arena to get into it, but I went to church yesterday for the first time in…a year?…and it just did not feel right. I should trust my instincts. I love the priest at the church, he is a good guy, and I know it’s important to my family, and culturally there will always be Catholicism in my background, but…three things. One, I was bubbling up with rage at the idea of women not being able to be in positions of leadership really; it’s hard for me to reconcile the idea of supporting an institution like this. Two, the Penn State stuff for some reason makes me newly upset about the years-ago molestation scandal; i.e., if I want Penn State out of the Big Ten…you know? The third thing I’m not going to get into, but let’s just say it didn’t feel right. And right now I am OK with that.

OK whew I totally did not mean to get into that. Whatever. Off to swim, then home to draw? Early to bed, early to rise, early to work, early to Edison, and in the thick of Christmastime and the week it all starts again. Have a lovely week, all.