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“Don’t sleep / you know that would be weak”

—Aaliyah, holla 1998!

“Damn the angry voice that keeps us quiet / the editor whose work is never done / keeping pretty words between my teeth and / sweet confessions underneath my tongue”

—Sarah Slean …reminders of 2004?

time 12:41 pm feeling glad and sad! wearing cool arty outfit, for the workplace, anyway music Aaliyah! ready for a weekend with nothing to do next I should eat something (seems a common theme)

NOTES:

1. I am pretty much listening to this Aaliyah song “Are You That Somebody?” over and over nonstop today. This infuriates Jeff, BTW.

2. I’m going to be 30 soon! No big plans. I would like a grillout though! Although it is quite cold!

3. Pretty sure I’m just going to retire from gymnastics and/or running. Sad day. Tests to come.

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(Not-so?) Random Memory:
The summer after we graduated (I think? or was it 2005?), Sarah was all set to move to Chicago. In fact, I even went down there with her one weekend in July to meet up with her future roommates and find them an apartment/aka party a lot (haha). She had stored some stuff in the storage room at Apt 3 for some reason and the day finally arrived that she was going to Move Out Of And Away From MN. So she came to the apartment and we started moving things out of the storage room and into her sedan, armful by armful.

All summer I’d just been in denial that anything was going to change and that she was going to leave me. The last time she’d left, for Italy for a semester, I’d definitely been lost, but somehow that led to Jeff, so…? And she had returned…duh. College to finish and all. But this move was for good.

(NOTE 2: I am such a loser that I might cry typing this, ha ha.)

And so out of my denial I came as we loaded up her car. This was it—this girl I’d locked eyes with in Color on Day 1 of college, somehow instinctively knew I could trust, and then kept as my dear dear friend for years was leaving. Sure, we’d stay friends, but despite dreaming it’s hard for it to stay the same.

So that wasn’t a great Random Memory, but still. It was a sad day. I will always wish she still lived in MN!

The End.