August 10th, 2011
but I knew exactly where I was
“But I knew exactly where I was / And I knew the meaning of it all / And I knew the distance to the sun / And I knew the echo that is love”
—Smashing Pumpkins, Muzzle
Amber of the moment: watching 6-, 8-, and 9-year-old girls walk into a parks room and take no notice of the teacher to create a game of chase all of their own, complete with rules and challenges and makebelieve and joy. Joy in their faces and such ease in playing. It felt like watching something too good to be real…something very lucky to witness.
Amber of the moment II: sitting in a conference room, soaking up CSS3 nerdery, creating dorky and obnoxious fuchsia-on-red pages and sending them back and forth to your husband, flirting electronically. (What?) Telling a tablefull of stranger-nerds that your ‘testing strategy’ in the late 90s for your ‘sites’ was to insist that your HS friends visit your site and give you feedback. Realizing that hey…maybe this is exactly where I belong.
Amber, baths, butterflies, sparkling everything. Girly again in my old age. “And I knew the meaning of it all…”