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“You know how the time flies / Only yesterday / it was the time of our lives / we were born and raised / in a summer haze / bound by the surprise / of our glory days”

—Adele

“Love is the condition in which the happiness of another person is essential to your own.”

—Robert Heinlein

“Looks like you get…”

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opening the door gaping across the threshold looking older but still looking younger still complication with optimistic outcome optimist? pessimist realist a dose of realism i’m tired tired of same old serious date night! malt shop! looking at pictures face so full “fat?” no just young, young, hit on by a college student? high school student? “do you go to Washburn?” ummmm… but it wasn’t that long ago but it was? half of your life away? staring across that threshold disappointment dejected rejected but coming up for air to new people new lives friends make new friends but keep (kept?) the old kept? old threshold door wooden table sweating glasses left your glasses you still don’t believe me about the glasses? racing around in cars in the dark curfew free questionably so the same four over and over guaranteed fun guaranteed to satisfy costumes and seance and barely light when you wake up and the school year lurks around the corner but doesn’t still, right? Augh August… fall crisp air Garbage darkness promising promises ahead steeling yourself for a night of insults the dark? new friends? old enemies? old enemy of yourself when the biggest worry was getting skills keeping skills performing on a little stage that felt pretty big it all felt pretty big, in fact; photos of bright eyes full faces shiny hearts lifetimes away… but still hard to let go.

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Ha. Yes, I still do that.

I am feeling better than I have all month which is promising and hopeful. SUPER DUPER excited for NATIONALS tomorrow with Diana!!! Reliving 2006…! Also excited for:

-lunch with Tiffany today
-grilled cheese/iced tea party with Anna on Monday (also DT = YAY DT lunch life!)
-Ange’s wedding Saturday/GD debauchery with Heidi and Brigette and Jeff : )
-Hanging Out with Jeff Friday/finishing the logo which is looking good! YAY
-HITF HH 8/31!
-FAIR soon
-Gotta admit, kind of excited for September.

NOT excited for:
-Amber and other friend(s) leaving TC area. Alas.

I am enjoying this Update Renaissance and I hope you (whoever ‘you’ are…Michael Jeff Alyssa and Mom, and Jenny) are, too. I expect that my Future Self will enjoy it even more, honestly.

Life…too much going on. Happier though.

“Love is the condition in which the happiness of another person is essential to your own.”