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“Do things that make you happy. Don’t do things that don’t.”

—Andrea, 9/4/99 (worth repeating)

“Maturity is a bitter disappointment for which no remedy exists, unless laughter could be said to remedy anything.”

—Kurt Vonnegut (again!)

“Let down and hanging around / Crushed like a bug in the ground”

—Radiohead, Let Down

“And in the dark, I can hear your heartbeat / I tried to find the sound / but then it stopped, and I was in the darkness / so darkness I became”

—Florence + The Machine, Cosmic Love

“Relax and sleep!”

—Jeff

time 7:38 AM, waiting for employment #s WTF BLS?! feeling much better than I thought! wearing ARC Value Village jean skirt, brown shirt music Caspian ready for BLS.gov to WORK wtf! next employment #s (better for July than expected WOO HOO partytime economy!!!)

So. My summer high came to a crashing halt on Tuesday. For a variety of reasons. Evidently the markets and I agree. I was a mess and this week has mostly not been pretty. Thank God for friends/fake+free therapy/Diana/Jeff.

However, I might believe I can get it back if the first two hours of this day are any indication…it’s just hard to imagine since I know the DOOMSDAY DARKNESS of shorter days and colder temps lay ahead of me. (I’m already a little depressed about 6AM sunrise/8:30PM sunset vs. 5AM/10PM. Gah.) But. Trying my damnedest. DENIAL. Delusions. I can live a life like this, at least for awhile. Magical summer 2011.

(FATE. Kismet. 2011.)

BUT! I biked to work today and it has put me in an INSANELY good mood. PHYSICAL ACTIVITY 4evah. I made incredible time, it was mostly deserted along the path, I biked the Mississippi (=love!), and the sky and water were gorgeous. Land Of Sky And Water. I love thee. Feeling more Minneapolitan than ever and can’t wait to be able to bike again. (Attending AEA next week [side note, 1998 dreams I didn’t even know I had coming truuuuue by attending that!] will prevent it for the near term.) I was at my desk by 7:15, showered and eggs in hand. Now waiting for BLS.gov to settle so I can do what I intended to do.

ALSO: The July employment numbers appear to be much better than anticipated. Take that, DJIA dropping 500 pts yesterday! Take THAT, economy! SUCKAS. I so badly want to see this get better, better, better. For everyone.

Clearly I am operating off of an endorphin-and-biking-induced high, but maybe, just maybe, this crash won’t be so bad. DISTRACTIONS. Partying. Optimism and hope. HOPE.

To continue this theme of unbridled and unexpected optimism and HOPE, terrific things to look forward to:
-Pedicures with roommates tomorrow!
-OUT dancing w/ friends tomorrow night!
-Swimming Sunday? (always always)
-UMN GD HH Tuesday
-AEA NEXT WEEK!!!!
-Back to Madison next weekend to Hang Out/Coffee With Chloe
-NATIONALS WITH DIANA 8/18!
-Ange’s wedding
-the FAIR (x3?)

So. I guess August isn’t all that bad.

OK seriously WTF BLS?! I need these numbers. Off to try other sources… Crash, STAY AWAY!!!!!

ETA: OH YEAH I got a check FROM my dentist for $145 yesterday, which I took as a Sign from the Universe that this might all work. MIGHT. Intending to spend it on sushi, jellybeans, and Prosecco, of course.