July 19th, 2011
welcome to the jungle
“I remember when, I remember, I remember when I lost my mind / there was something so pleasant about that place / even your emotions had an echo / in so much space // And when you’re out there / without care / yeah, I was out of touch / but it wasn’t because I didn’t know enough / I just knew too much”
—Gnarls Barkley, Crazy
“As usual, you are crazy.”
—Jeff, 7/18/11
“vapor kiss / memory of such longing / whispered dream / gone before the morning / Time is such a funny thing / it pulls you on like silly string / oh the pain and sorrow / Never thought the haunting of / such a temporary love could / make me beg and borrow”
—Supreme Beings of Leisure, Nothin’ Like Tomorrow
time afternoon feeling mostly pleased but w/ general sense of unease and worry wearing gray dressssss music spooky music, incl. Supreme Beings of Leisure ready for debt deal to get done next JS charts
Definitely still have the haunting sense of general unease. Somehow this time though it’s at least externally directed, vs. internally. & for that I am grateful!
(Well, OK. Not true. _SOME_ of this unease is internally focused. Inspired by Reunion June and THE PAST creeping its way upon me, I am stirring things up. Time to beat RANDOMNESS at its own game. Starting with Chicago this wkd, perhaps…vamos a ver. At least I’ll see Chris for sure which will be nice and weird in and of itself. But scheming up other possible reunions. Could be good. Could be terrible. Hence…UNEASE.)
Anyway. Mostly right now I am uneasy about the economy, including the recession + numbers + market unrest, and especially the debt ceiling stuff. Really really freaky. I’m serious. Despite being in a good position personally (for which I am very very GRATEFUL!!!) + household-wise, I just don’t like any of this. Feels way too 2009 to me and I just hate seeing so many people suffer. I mean, yeah, it’s mostly business as usual in my life at large, but damn. This just hasn’t been cool. And somehow I’m afraid it shall continue for the rest of the decade. Who knows.
I just don’t like the mood it casts upon everything and I especially dislike the uncertainty surrounding so many things in this country right now. Not good for anyone. Plus…not to be adolescent, but, it’s freakin’ summer man. Should be good times here! Come on.
I am listening to much spooky music and that is not helping matters at all. Too much coldpress too. Calmate, calmate, senorita!
Anyway. Moving along. Obsessed with our bathtub. “It’s the little things.” I used to think baths were gross, now that we have one after having been deprived I am way into it. YEAH!
80+ degree dewpoints. Totally junglelike. Totally insane.
Chi Fri-Mon. Soooooooooo excited to see Jenny and her new place! Sad to miss Jeff though : (. Luckily starting 7/25 he is allllll mine at least for a few weeks.
“Planned spontaneity” with my True Ten friends tonight! So proud of us all, self included, for making this happen. Wilde Roast I love thee!
Unease…be gone. Recession…be over. Shutdown…be done. These things I command, Universe. Por favor, mi amor. Make It Right.
Enough. OUT. Out out out.