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“If you don’t shut your ****ING MOUTH…I’ll kill you.” –Alyssa, 4/22/04, to Lexi “Sometimes I like to make her mad…” –Lexi “To provoke outbursts?” –A-K “You know what that’s called Lexi? That’s called S&M.” –Alyssa

—4/22/04

“Hey, my love, you came to me like / wine comes to this mouth / grown tired of water all the time / you quench my heart and / oh you quench my mind // Celebrate we will / cause life is short but sweet for certain”

—Dave Matthews Band

time 9:46 pm…*TOO LATE* before a 4:45 wakeup call (or not?) feeling *ANXIOUS* for no good reason wearing UMN pajamas, themes 4Evah music DMB/EITS/POP/National ready for hitting the road already, just 8 hours I suppose next *GET SOME SLEEP LX!*

Tweet from earlier…….

“general level of senseless ANXIETY rising…unclear sense of DREAD with no cause…aaaaah Brain shhhhhhhhhhh! #apt3freakout”

…..obviously I have a problem (several, actually). I know I will feel better once we hit the road. In the meantime, however, here I sit, filling with random apprehension, self-medicating with (a) sleepytime tea (b) massive amounts of candy (c) writing, while Jeff plays his sweet new videogame. A typical night at our house should help to settle my general, random sense of unease, no?

I will feel better when I am on the road to Kristin’s tomorrow just before 6, cold press in hand, Civic loaded up, freeway before us. In the meantime……I am anxiously anxious, because I am: Apt 3er, a MASON, firstborn, perfectionist, worrier, GYMNAST, myself/AFM->AMA 4-evah. AAAAAAAH.

But all is done, packing complete, car loaded, bridesmaid dress hung, treats baked, etc etc etc. SO this anxiety is for NAUGHT. Now all that is left is massive reunioning, enormous celebrating, and seeing Sarah and Trent get MARRIED. !!!

This is a horrible update.

Oh well.

I almost passed out after giving blood yesterday. They also f’ed it up and had to dig around in my arm. Then said I may have some significant bruising due to that. NOOOOOOOOOO. I am in a wedding on Friday people WHYYYYYYYY. It is my own fault for wanting to be as tissue-Karmic as possible, ha ha ha.

I also saw my INTERNET FRIEND Colleen yesterday and it made my night.

SOCIAL LIFE.

Stalkers everywhere…

…including self.

NOT DRINKING but should be……………..

FOOD BLOGS! Green Kitchen Stories. Underwear key lime pie. She consented to marry only if a man could outrun her in a race. Distractions. “He was 18.” SAASsy partying. High ponytails. 24 hours in the dorm save 1. Going to (New?) Mexico long-distance loves SAR fish comic yellow paint secretsrevealed formalpajamas maybabies 3ampancakes lockingusintheapt leftheovenonagain macaronicocopuffsbarclose thursdaynightbread streakingthemall hellpartyglitter wallquotes klaaquad aadsfpwuaovmwapoursa……………