July 19th, 2009
All of a sudden / I miss everyone
So much to write about and I just don’t do it anymore. I quit my job and started a new one. Leaving Ham was like graduating high school in that I miss it and everyone who was a part of it both in complete and completely irrationally. The new gig shows promise, which is great, though I know it will be hard to find the same kind of thing I had at Ham ever. When it comes to making friends, anyway.
I’m still having a hard time with LeRoy; who isn’t?? I can’t believe it’s been a month. I wish I could just see him one more time. I can’t believe he’s gone for real. I’ve weirdly started going to church again, on a sporadic basis. I find it very calming and a constant connection to the life and times and origin of the Mason family.
We’ve had a lot of work done to the house—thanks, airport!—which is awesome but it’s making it hard to just hang out and have fun. Boo on that. Then freelance just keeps coming in which is difficult, because I just don’t want to do any extra work again. But I like the people that want to do it. Ugh.
Sarah was here this week and she came to Alyssa’s for our dinner. It was so nice to see her and a reminder of so many things. There are a few people in my life with whom I became friends because I saw them and thought to myself, ‘this person is someone whom I must befriend.’ And then made a concerted effort to push that forward. Sarah, obviously, is one of those people. There is a smaller subset of this group with whom I succeeded at forcing my friendship upon them, but with whom I also had to take more care in how strongly I show that attachment, because otherwise they would be suffocated and run. I know that doesn’t make any sense. But seeing Sarah made me think not just of all of those days in our past together, but of these other few people, as well. I miss her. And everyone.
I got to go up north with my family last week which was delightful, although I missed Jeff. Ah life. I need to write more but I just don’t. I’m sorry. Time to go call Jenny back. Later.